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Jaye's Mother Margaret at Seventeen
REACH FOR THE LIGHT
(An Award Winning Heartwarmer on
Heartwarmers.com)
She could grow anything from seed.
She could take tiny seeds with her fingertips,
place
them into the
soil, and coax them to grow.
She would carefully water the soil and
whisper,
"You're going to love the sunshine. You're going to feel
the
rain. And you are really going to adore the rainbow!"
I watched this mysterious woman and marveled at the
love she gave
to
each tiny seed.
It was as though the love that she had longed for,
and
never experienced, poured out of her heart, and into the seed and soil.
As
if in a strange intimacy, she pulled grace and beauty from the depths,
and
the little plants would burst forth, reaching for light and air.
There was some sort of hushed beauty within her.
A secret longing
that no one had ever seen nor touched.
It was as if she were too shy or too scared to awaken,
perhaps knowing
that once set free, she would become out of control.
I caught a
glimpse of
that passion when her anger became unleashed,
and it could be dangerous to
be the one within her grasp.
Yet, she was always gentle with growing
things.
She was a mystery to me --
this repressed, passionate,
secret woman,
who gave up on life early within my childhood.
She seldom bought a living plant.
She combed
garden catalogs looking
for seeds.
She mixed her own soil and she started those seeds in any
container available.
To my mother, anything that had a bottom
and an
open
top was a container.
She started seeds in empty egg cartons, milk cartons,
and even
eggshells.
She especially loved to start tomatoes in the eggshells
of
geese.
She'd make a tiny drainage hole with a needle,
start the seed
in
her homemade soil, and when it came time
to transplant into the garden,
she
would gently crush the shell,
right before she placed the plant into it's
permanent home.
"Eggshells sweeten the soil," she would say.
Where she found the African Violet seeds, I'll never
know.
I watched
her mix just the right amount of soil ingredients,
placing the invisible seed at just the right depth.
Then she watered with care and watched
it
grow.
It seemed to me that, overnight, the tiny plants would
appear,
strong
and affirming, to lighten up her life.
I loved to watch my mother's
face,
as those first tiny seedlings raised their heads to smile at her.
I suppose that my mother felt safest with her plants.
Plants never
told her she was worthless.
Plants asked for little, and they gave
back so much.
Plants never came home drunk, like my father did.
And
they were
never disobedient, as I was.
My mother would often tell me her secrets for making
things grow.
I
can still hear her voice as she shared her magical recipe
for compost or
discussed the benefits of one manure over another.
I never told her just how beautiful she was at those
moments,
with her
face alight with understanding and knowledge.
My mother was a botanist, without a degree.
She
was a horticulturist,
without a following.
She cared for growing things with great
tenderness,
and in spite of the sorrow in her life,
I still remember my mother's
smile,
as some new thing sprang forth before her eyes.
I remember her warm, throaty laugh,
when she discovered
that first
robin's nest in spring.
I'd stand, spellbound with her, as she
counted the
eggs
that tried so inadequately to imitate the blue in my mother's eyes.
She told me stories filled with longing and pathos.
I would laugh and
cry with her
as she spun the threads of her lost dreams,
never daring to
hope for a future.
She was brilliant, and she never knew it.
She was a beauty overcome by regret and broken
promises.
She dreamed
impossible dreams that were never uttered,
and even less fulfilled.
Every once in awhile, that beautiful, passionate woman
would peek out
through my mother's volatile journey through life --
usually when she was
coaxing plants
to come out of the dark
and encouraging them to
reach for
the light.
© Jaye Lewis, 2003
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